oh and i cant forget her little precious twins got into a private highschool..and she was crying when she got the letter.. that killed me only because i she never cared about my schooling never asked to help with homework never went to parent-teacher-confrences nothing her or my dad. i already know he doesnt care but to know neither of your parents give a shit about pretty much anything yu do..it really hurts i know i wasnt good in school but they could have at least cared a little but or even went to a confrence and asked how they can help me get better..but she did all of that for the other three kids. well at least im not living in a fantasy worl..i know where i stan in her life.. right next to the dirty clothes on her floor

so i just got into a big fight with my mom. its kindof pettty but oh well. here s the story..i found a yogurt container & a chip bag behind the couch..& with me just cleaning the house i thought it was rude as fuck..so i confronted everyone about it and seeing as i bought it that made me 3x more mad cuz they didnt even ask to fucking have one..just like someone ate all of my peaches. so i said i dont understand why they ate all my food and i paid for it and my mom said thats exactly how she feels so im thinking what the fuck is that supposed to mean..i figured she was calling me a fatass like she loves to say on the sly. so i said well my child support pays for it and she laughs..well this can go back to that other post where i said i dont see any of my child support...but anywho so i was letting the dogs out and i was pissed so i judo-kicked the fuck out of the garbage. so she starts calling me dirty and a slob. WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK!?!?! ill go take pictures of all the rooms in the fucking house and post them..my room is the only clean room.. & in fact the only room where yu can even see the floor! im the only one who helps..well i guess im the only one who does anything because all the kids do is make more of a mess then blame it on eachother and my "mother" does the dishes every three months. i can just never win. things would just be better without me here but i just dont understand how they can live in a dirty house like this & even more i dont understand how she can be so disrespectful to our grandmothers house like this..ill never understand her.

alright well i think i just got the second most worst news in my life! the class i had to do online kicked me out because i havent been on in forever..i needed that bitch to graduate!!!! :( fuck my motherfuckin life!

alright scratch that last one..im 18..and a super senior in highschool..sadly enough. and that means my father who hasnt really been there for me in my early years has to pay child support another year.. he pays $500 a month.. and i understand that child support is supposed to be to help your living situation and help pay for the things yu need..but ive never even seen a dime of that money. smh (shaking my head) my mother has brain washed me..she says the money goes to the car payment the rent etc. BUT heres the thingshe doesnt pay rent hardly and we have had our truck for like 6 years...it should be paid off by now.. and what also kills me is that she has a perfectly ine job of her own.. alright i understand yea im 1 i shoudl be buying things on my own now.....welllll i have been for the past 7 years. isnt that sad i mean ive got a jo so that isnt too hard its just the fact that she gets my child support, and the other 3 kids child support and she doesnt do anything for me..but she gets the kids prettymuch anything they want. like for the past 3 christmas' & birthdays i havent gotten a single git from her
sometimes i honestly believe she doesnt like me nearly as much as the other kids..if at all and thats very sad to think that your own mother doesnt care about you.

alright well this is my first post for my first blog ever..i just wanted a blog  so i could vent my feelings..lol i know its kind of cheesy but i ts the truth..ive ghot a hrad life but i dont like talking to people soooo here i am.. alright well my next post is goint to be sort of an "about me" soo stay tuned.. ;)